Evangeline Speaks

Does anyone else feel the way I do about love  in a modern society being an old soul in a cage I've barely ventured out of. A bird just learning to develop cultured wings to be able to fly in grace, truth of being and honor. Not just to societal values but bringing a voice from the beginning of time until today. 

What does it mean to love I ask?. Is it self love first or is it a general yet personal approach to include all possible things that life could throw at  you and is that acceptable or does it make one as naive and a pushover as many may say if you "Accept it all". Is it acceptance or a vision we follow committed all the way with a focus of true completion with or without reward. A love we foster whether we can or we cant, where the kernel reveals the corn and yet there is no reward except a heart that if noticed has no expectations yet the end is the same we are made manifest and there is no end to that. 

I have always and until today still believe in the concept of all of love or nothing at all. I've cried silently for years over a feeling I've possessed and held so close inside but yet I had no identifying other half to confirm that there is no labor without a birth of some or any kind or a light at the end of the tunnel. Everywhere I went my eyes within me sought for confirmation of this love until it clued in to me that every act of anyone is love depending on whether I understood at the time of the act or realize years later when I would sit and reflect on them when I read my diary at the end of each year which I would do as a ritual to make resolutions for the coming year. 

See  my name is Evangeline Christ and I come from a place I once called "The Garden of Eden", The City on a Hill where Babylon lives. A place one would say there is nothing you have not had heard  or seen. What more would i have needed being "The First Woman " to open my eyes on this planet. Did I open my eyes on that day or did I open my husband's eyes or God's eye to see . Who was I conversing with at that moment and did I truly choose to open my eyes or was I urged on by unseen forces. Was it a true act of love that made me succumb to the thought or just doing what was acceptable. In my opinion it was all of the above and more considering i was also groomed and affected by my parents and of course the community because in those days everyone was your parent.

How do you open your true eyes, the eyes of love all encompassing everything excepting nothing. Love with no conditions with a memory of nothing yet a hope of a fulfilled conclusion. All or Nothing or glimpses of what we might think is impossible. a thought filled with fear and unbelief or demanding a complete script of our manifest. See we are still all whether we have or have not, made perfect even without any acts or additions we are what we are at all times. Love doesnt demand changes because love knows that we are the change it requires to make words into a full sentence. Each tiny bit its own element of the universe and if that piece is missing it causes imbalance and "disease"(meaning discomfort")  If we are the salt of the earth we should not lose our saltiness (Matthew 5:13).Though we can be molded we shouldn't lose our true meaning and our name called from the beginning of time.. The evidence of our Heritage and our blood line.  That doesn't mean we shouldn't grow or evolve because i think that is absolutely necessary in order to  validate the journeying possibilities of a mind over time and the conclusion that we are and can be a mirror for ourselves also the answer to another's wish or prayer. To be the most effective I believe is by being full of who we are yet receptive of our other selves as a gift from creation if we choose to honor life that way. There is no right or wrong way to love for what is love if we put demands on something that that can never be captured by the natural mind or sensed in a predetermined condition. Love means I am you and You are me at all times with a focus of seeing with the all encompassing eye to foster and bring about a universal union . The Eye of The Known Yet we know nothing The eye of the unknown yet we know for all truths are written in our hearts expressed by all the players of life . So if we hinder one we will never have the complete picture or meaning of what is being expressed at any time. Therefore to see through the eye of the complete universe is to see. The way the land looks at the water, the way it steadies itself to brace each expression at times. At another time it may not laugh but but ponder the real need of the other. Is it that we need to be like that to love, no but flow of the natural is sometimes a good thing. why else would we give up our own views to reach nirvana a true state of highest self if not to have the nothing in nothing to be made manifest into the accumulation of our lives and selves. Life from the first thought to  all the universal thoughts as a gift from self to the universe or a gift from the universe to self. May we take the time to reflect on these thoughts as we go through this journey called life that we be careful not to define our outcome according to defined conclusions but to allow ourselves to reflect, refine and renew our commitments through the all encompassing, all inclusive eye of each birth, each breath and each us. Yet individuals we walk in the universe as the universe, bringing self to all self for the sake of love